this is a picture from last spring. i was upset with myself and thought i looked fat here. i would literally kill someone to look like this again. i was so tiny why the fuck did i let myself go and how could i even think i was fat when i looked like that. that’s the beauty of having an eating disorder. the more you lose the more you hate yourself and need to lose more. well now i’ve gained and its safe to say i hate my body now. i WILL get back to this. i dont care what it takes to get back.